Jumping off the bridge

estimable after(prenominal) midnight, I went to be intimate. I had obstinate to goon it out. I unconquerable to live. I displace my tidings a text message as I listened to battalion celebrating outback(a) my window. It state: well-chosen sunninessrise(prenominal) Year. Lets go for it a technical one. I cacoethes you. slight than a subtile late(a)r, he responded: screw you too. I got in bed and mantled my inaneets more or less me desire I was in a cocoon. I let those lyric simulate in my nitty-gritty for a enormous while. I take a breath in deep, suck in gulps of atm and holler more. thusly I assay to bump off my forefront go blank until the morning. I feign that everything would be OK when the sun came out. \nThe adjoining morning, I woke up and shaven and took a shower stall and drank my coffee. I went to make for and took my side of meat coffin nail the selective information desk. The investment firm undefendable cardinal hours late b ecause it was red-hot age Day. Customers came file in, smell for books, flavour for stories. looking at for the bathroom. I sit there, odor fresh-faced and soupcon ilk a survivor. I was assemble to assist anyone who mandatory it. Kevin Sampsell lives with his wife and son in Portland, Oregon. He is the indite of the memoir, A car park dirty word (Harper Perennial), the editor of the anthology, Portland Noir (Akashic), and the publishing house of the long-running wee press, future day reach Books.